Falling Apart

Seconds turn into minutes, hours into days and days to months,

Yet the conflict in my head never ceases to exist.

Is it just a hoax, I wonder.

The undeniable insanity feeds on the isolation,

Chasing the what-ifs and slumming through the depressant haze.

The suffocating silence is not a mere physical manifestation of self,

It is embracing the truth of the shredded hope,

And the melancholy which the indifference and apathy offered.

Stained is the soul with doubts and regrets,

Watching as the last ray of the reckoning light fade away.

Mind is left in tatters and body feels like a shattered mirror,

As darkness continues to lurk behind, preparing to unleash hell.

"Been playing pretend for a long time now,

Feels like it's time to succumb to the dread",

Whispered the tear as it fell, carrying the weight of all the muffled cries of anguish.

All of us, mere flesh and bone.

Yet divided are we, in the name of gender, race, sexual orientation and more.

Where love has to be nurtured, seeds of prejudice are sowed.

Contagious is ignorance as it continues to blind us to the vicious encounters of supposed normality.

The world is filled with deceitful lies,

With heartache masquerading as love, frowns as smiles.

Unspoken words, forsaken bonds, forgotten memories.

How do we survive in this tangled web? Time would tell.

Day and night, kept wracking my brain to find a way out.

Can see the dust rising and the storm brewing.

With every door being slammed and window being shut, I lose myself.

Maybe I should start falling in love with falling apart.